u noe what syg actually there is a reason why i keep on silent n didnt on9 almost a week.. it's all bcoz i were in rehab dear..i want to cure my addiction towards you..you're kind like a drug to me..n im so addicted to u..but u noe syg..there is no cure for my addiction..coz i'm already addicted to u for a long time n the drugs hve been spread in my whole body.. n if i stop to take the drug i'll die coz i really cant live without u syg.. same like a drug addict cnt live without take his drug...but as u know syg even i'm in rehab i really miss u so much! n i need my drug back..i cant lose u syg even for a sec..lemah btol i niey kn syg? xkuat mcm u pownn..hurmm..n m so sorry dear..i never meant to leave u..n never tot that u'll wait for me too..tenkayouu..i miss u too syg..really miss you so much!! i promise i'll be there for u no matter what..n i dnt want to stay in rehab again..i rather die bcoz of my addicted to u than i lose u syg..i promise!
thus, a big apologies to you syg coz i dnt gve my fully support to u when u really need that..i dnt even know that u were went to do an operation a couple of week ago n need to go for ur painful treatment continuesly..i really dnt know..n i wish i could stand by ur side syg..temankn u mne je u pgy..bwk u jln2 even u jln slow motion pown..i xkesah! i really wish that to be happen syg.. but in reality i know i could not to do that even nk jmpe u pown i x mampu..bcoz u r too far away..lemahnye i syg..n im sorry.. :((((((
sayanggg~ jgnla ckp u nk pgy..jgnla janji u xkn muncul lg..i never ask for that kn syg ?? then y u promise me such thing that i really dnt want to be happen ?? pleasee syg..dnt say that curse words again..it's hurt..u r hurting me without u realize that..i need u syg..i really2 need u..u r my happiness n u r my misery too..u r my poison but u r the only one my potion..then how i can let u go so sudden syg ?? how could i live without all that...without you! i cant i couldnt i can not bear it..i x sekuat u syg.. :'((((((
tabahlah sayang,..i know u r in pain..so sick..inside and outside..with ur treatment..wif ur many probs..n also u hve to take care of the baby..n i noe all that can make u in depressed..
but as u noe syg..Allah sllu ad bersama ngn u wif all of us..even u sng n susah..u hve to trust Him no matter what..bergntung la pd Allah coz He's the only one source that u can ask for help..n if u believe Him insyAllah Dia akn tlg u jugak..jgnla berhenti berdoa syg..i kt cnie pown hanya mampu berdoa agar u sntiasa selamat n dilindungi oleh Nya..i doa Allah akn kurgkn beban yg Dia turunkn utk u..u pown twu kn syg..sume tu hanya ujian dr Nya sbb Allah sygkn u.. Allah nk uji sejauh mana kuatnye iman u pd Nya..n i harap u truslah bersabar ngn sume dugaan n ujian dr Nya..n jgnla tnye knpe n mengapa sbb hanya Allah je yg tahu ape yg Dia takdirkn utk u..all that happend ada hikmahnya.. :)
sayang~ u noe how much i love you..i love you more than u ever thought..i love evrything about you..love the way u make me happyn love the way u make me crazy especially..n i will keep it in my memory n save it in my heart box..i'll throw the key after i lock it so that no one could take the memories between us..i promise.. i love you syg..love you with all of my heart..n i'll never forget that till the end of my life.
if u should live for 100 years i wish i could live for 99 years
so that i'll not live without you ;)
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